Thanksgiving

as i was just telling a friend of mine via facebook,

this is a hard holiday for me..

it's hard for me to forget some aspects of Thanksgiving that we as Americans tend to overlook...

the smallpox we gave the Natives, the land we stole from them...


HOWEVER,

Before these things happened, there was a meal that was shared between Settlers and Native Americans,
where they brought together and shared all that they had,
to feed themselves to last the winter.


Thanksgiving isn't just hard for me because of the hypocricy, it's also because for the last 15 years I have celebrated Thanksgiving, I have never truly had something to be thankful for...

but this past year has possibly been the most difficult since I was 12.

and today,
for I think, the first time EVER,
I am thoroughly grateful for what I have.

I have a roof over my head,
food on my table,
and a loving family.


Honestly, how we've been able to keep up with the house payments, I have NO idea.
But we did,
and that's all that matters.

Insanity.

thats what this weekend was...

insanity.






















i LOVE being so busy,




doing so many different things,
with so many different friends.



i mean,




*friday with the techies @ universal (lauren shelly charlesice taylor chad breeany bradley yeti TIM tyler) ,

"CRAP kathy! why'd you have to be such a DOUSED?! ugh, getting us all DOUCHED with water!?!"

:D




*saturday was a tech day and hung out with charlesice, then a sleepover at yvettes with allie kayla and the chicken whisperer,

"waiitt... i have a question... were you speaking in english... or chicken?"

*sunday church and bible study with kim ash and ms linda, then movies with kim ash sleeper and schroeter.

"Yeaahh. we're gonna talk about vaginas."

heyyyy-zeus.










i wish every weekend could leave me so exhausted.




:D










i love feeling this way...
you know, happy?
...joyful even?










its nice...










and its been WAAAYY too long...